Depend on me in difficult times

So it's no coincidence that when looking for something in the basement that I came across my God Calling book.  I loved yesterday's post.  It was a perfect reminder of what I need right now.  "Rely on me alone. Ask no other help. ....So much retained by you, so much the less will be gained from me."  "Trust completely.  Empty your vessel. I will fill it.  .... Depend on me"  So I am rereading this today to my oldest son and explaining how we should always ask the Lord to help us through all situations in our life first.  How we often try to help ourselves first when we should ask the Lord first.  I am preaching this to him but explaining to him at the same time how Mom even struggles with it.  So then I said let's read what today's passage says.  And how fitting --- "Come to Me, talk to Me, dwell with Me and you will know My Way is a sure way...Come very near to Me."  So I continued my lesson to explain how even when they are so angry at their brother they can quickly say "Jesus be with me" or "Jesus help me" or even go more in-depth but that we should be talking with him constantly throughout our days asking for his help - trusting that he will see us through.  I have definitely drifted over the past few years away from him.  Not too far but not as close as I would like.  I have the task of being the spiritual leader in our home and when I'm not as close as I should be to Jesus then I'm not modeling it well for my kids.  We still do our daily prayers and attend mass but I can model it in so many other ways for them.  I think Jesus is calling out to me by me finding my God calling book and reading these passages.  Even with just this I was able to have a teaching moment with my two oldest about how close they should be with Jesus each day.  Lord help me to be closer to you and to model my spirituality to my children.  Help me today and every day to be a better daughter to you.